Skip to main content

Love is Blind - Madison Haynes

Life is full of many wonderful and exciting things, but it can become painful or tragic. When I was a little girl I was in such a hurry to grow up, instead of living in the moment as a child. As I progressed through high school everything was different, more temptations, peer pressure, and constantly feeling like I was lost. I had a happy childhood and two amazing parents who loved me dearly, but I still felt a gaping hole in my chest. I grew up in church most of my life, but I wasn’t where I needed to be in Christ. At a (very) young age, I gave away a precious gift in hopes of finding myself “worthy” in the eyes of my previous love. My first love, what an amazing, but painful experience it was. We were inseparable from the start, until one day we weren’t. I fell head over heels in love, and I honestly thought this was it, the one for me. Have you ever heard the expression, “Love is blind?” I can say that statement was true in my case. I had no idea that I was in a toxic relationship, and I finally realized that we were poisoning each other. He broke my heart, just like I did his. I began to spiral deeper into my own chaotic mess, and I no longer had control of the wheel. I wasn’t myself anymore, and my parents took a notice in it, but at the time I didn’t want their help. I looked to other things that I thought would fill my empty heart, but it only satisfied my aching soul for a short period of time. My friends were gone, my relationship with my parents was messy, and I just felt useless.As I got older my anxiety and depression increased dramatically. I didn’t want to leave my house, all I wanted was to be alone. At the age of eighteen, I finally quit running from my problems, and I came crashing into God’s presence. If it wasn’t for the mercy God showed me, and placing a praying momma in my life, I don’t know where I would be at today. I want you to know that NO man decides your value, because we are all beautifuland worthy in Christ’s eyes. Lust, deceit, and peer pressure are nothing but lies from the enemy. It took me three years to figure out that I AM worthy, I AM a daughter of Christ, and he is the reason for my wonderful life. I do regret the decisions I made, but my walk with Christ is so connected, and I am an overcomer from it. My path wasn’t always straight and narrow, but there was a time that it was filled with many twists and turns. I am thankful that he brought me out of my own despair and depression, because I had become a living zombie. The Lord has blessed me tremendously with a beautiful life, wonderful friends, and mended the brokenness in my family. I am now very good friends with ex, and we have put aside our differences and forgave each other. I still suffer with anxiety, but I know that the Lord is by my side fighting every battle. I want to leave youwith a verse, that has helped me in my walk with God. “I will exalt you, Lord, for you lifted me out of the depths and did not let my enemies gloat over me. Lord my God, I called to you for help, and you healed me. You, Lord, brought me up from the realm of the dead; you spared me from going down to the pit. Sing the praises of the Lord, you his faithful people; praise his holy name. For his anger lasts only a moment, but his favor lasts a lifetime; weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning” (Psalm 30:1-5, NIV). I pray that someone will receive something from this story, because it was laid heavily on my heart to write it. God bless you all.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Don't Waste Your "Wait" 💎 Hannah Workman

When Kelly asked me to submit something for this blog I wasn’t sure what I wanted to write about. I feel like I have so much, yet nothing to talk about all at the same time. So I decided to talk about something that has unfortunately been a huge part of my life, waiting. Waiting is horrible. No one enjoys waiting at the bank. Waiting in line at Disney for a ride is a nightmare with how hot it is. Waiting in traffic stinks. Waiting to hear results from a test drives you mad. The waiting is the worst. On June 20th, 2009 I married my wonderful husband surrounded by our friends and family. In March of 2011 we decided that we wanted to start a family. I imagined it would come easy for us, and that we would have enough kids to make a baseball team. I quickly learned that this would not be the case. After 6 very disappointing months, we went to the doctor’s office. She seemed optimistic that a few rounds of medicine would do the trick and we would be pregnant in no time. Six months o...
Post a Comment
Read more

Learning To Embrace The Crazy

Have you ever had a bad day? Not just any bad day, but the kind that could be turned into a movie?  It might have gone something like this: after waking up late because your alarm didn’t go off, you didn’t have time to eat breakfast. So, you make your favorite quick breakfast drink. On your way to work you spilled your drink while checking your email & walking down the hallway.  Then, you have a meeting but didn’t have time to go home & change. So, while attending the meeting you try to send a quick text to someone to bring you a change of clothes fast, because you need to present at another meeting. But your friend can’t help ya out. So, you head to the ladies room to clean up.  As you try to clean up, you end up getting little bits of paper towel all over yourself & it looks much worse. That’s not all, though. You decide that since your outfit is at it’s worst, you could at least freshen up your makeup. As you get the makeup from your purse, the unthinkable ...
Post a Comment
Read more

3 things I sometimes forget hen life is hard

2023 has been tough. It’s challenged me in ways I never expected.  It’s gotten me thinking. We often blame God for bad circumstances and praise Him when things go right. I think there are 3 things we often forget easily:  1. God gives and takes everything with a bigger purpose in mind.  Isaiah 55:9 “For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” 2. Trials are promised, not something we’re exempt from as Christians.  James 1:2 Testing of Your Faith Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, 3. Jesus does understand  His death was the most painful kind possible in His time and He was tempted just as we are.  Matthew 4:1 The Temptation of Jesus “Then Jesus was led up by the Spirit into the wilderness to be tempted by the devil.” That doesn’t mean that trials are fun to go through. It means we need a mindset shift. Instead of being surprised by them we should exp...
Post a Comment
Read more