Words of a Belle

When God says wait. He isn't saying it just for the sake of the waiting. You'll grow in the process. You'll see the beautiful things about yourself, as well as many other things that aren't as pretty as you thought they were.  You'll see yourself through the eyes of someone who loves you more deeply than anyone can.  You'll see the that the hidden secrets that have held you captive don't have to anymore. No matter how ugly they make you feel.  You'll see that your pain isn't meaningless after all & you're not the only one who has this struggle.   You'll find comfort when you realize that no one needs you act a certain way to be free from whatever it is that is driving you insane. Because true love is unconditional. Be yourself. Because love doesn't lie. Love knows you are hurting and wants to be right there beside you. 

My week has been so crazy that I wasn't going to write a post this week. I changed my mind after watching a Liberty University convocation with Jim Kelly & his daughter Erin. I don't want to give away the details, but if there's one thing you take away from this convo, remember that God is BIGGER. time after time in my childhood we didn't know if I would live. We didn't know if I would talk. But the one thing we did know was that it was all in His hands. 

When Kelly asked me to submit something for this blog I wasn’t sure what I wanted to write about. I feel like I have so much, yet nothing to talk about all at the same time. So I decided to talk about something that has unfortunately been a huge part of my life, waiting. Waiting is horrible. No one enjoys waiting at the bank. Waiting in line at Disney for a ride is a nightmare with how hot it is. Waiting in traffic stinks. Waiting to hear results from a test drives you mad. The waiting is the worst. On June 20th, 2009 I married my wonderful husband surrounded by our friends and family. In March of 2011 we decided that we wanted to start a family. I imagined it would come easy for us, and that we would have enough kids to make a baseball team. I quickly learned that this would not be the case. After 6 very disappointing months, we went to the doctor’s office. She seemed optimistic that a few rounds of medicine would do the trick and we would be pregnant in no time. Six months o