When Kelly asked me to submit something for this blog I wasn’t sure what I wanted to write about. I feel like I have so much, yet nothing to talk about all at the same time. So I decided to talk about something that has unfortunately been a huge part of my life, waiting.
Waiting is horrible. No one enjoys waiting at the bank. Waiting in line at Disney for a ride is a nightmare with how hot it is. Waiting in traffic stinks. Waiting to hear results from a test drives you mad. The waiting is the worst.
On June 20th, 2009 I married my wonderful husband surrounded by our friends and family. In March of 2011 we decided that we wanted to start a family. I imagined it would come easy for us, and that we would have enough kids to make a baseball team. I quickly learned that this would not be the case.
After 6 very disappointing months, we went to the doctor’s office. She seemed optimistic that a few rounds of medicine would do the trick and we would be pregnant in no time.
Six months of meds, negative tests, and broken hearts were our lives. We continued month after month playing the waiting game of seeing if we would finally get that much awaited plus sign. We prayed and prayed. We took our requests to our families and friends. We spent hours on our faces before God. Every chance I had I would have people in our church pray for us.
Honestly, it was exhausting.
I would get my hopes up every month feeling like my prayers had been answered, only to have my heart crushed. I was playing the waiting game, every single month. I was in the midst of my wait and it was terrible.
I wanted the answer to my prayer right then.
We moved to Cleveland in 2014. It was a new adventure in a big city with a big network of doctors. I started seeing many doctors. New tests, more medicines, and surgeries that were not available to me while I lived in Arkansas. I was for certain that I would get my answer.
During this time we were constantly getting confirmations from friends and strangers alike that God would fulfill His promises to us. That the waiting would be worth it.
During this time I was reminded of Sarah in the Bible who had to wait until she was almost 100 years old to have a baby. She was way past child bearing years, way past what man would say was possible, yet God did the impossible.
I was reminded of Hannah. She wept (which I did a lot of) because of her pain and anguish of not being able to have a child. God allowed His promise to be fulfilled in her life and she was able to hold her baby boy.
The woman with the issue of blood dealt with the flow of blood for Y-E-A-R-S. I can’t imagine dealing with this during today’s culture, much less during the time of Jesus. Women were not afforded the medical supplies and attention that we get and they were not treated like humans. All she longed for was to touch the hem of his garment and she knew would be healed. When she touched his hem, her flow dried up and she was a brand new woman. She instantly became the woman she had once been.
I wonder the things they had to learn in their own times of waiting?
Isaiah 40:31 ESV says “but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.”
Waiting on the Lord is a huge theme in the Bible. Many of the greatest people in the Bible had to wait. In the waiting comes our greatest joys.
Whatever wait you are in right now, don’t lose hope. In your wait is when God chooses to mold you into someone you could never imagine you would be. Don’t waste your wait. When you come out on the other side of your wait the things you will have learned will be irreplaceable.
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